Contamination

It’s interesting how the mind works. You think you want something real bad, and in reality, you do. You want it, and oh you want it now. However, wants and needs are so commonly confused that it’s hard to distinguish wants from needs. Especially when your mind is in such a vulnerable state of want, in which case you are more likely to dig yourself so deep into a hole and you don’t realize how deep you really are until you, for some reason, gain the urge to climb back out and take a look in. Man have I been in a deep hole. And it’s not the first, and will most likely not be last. It’s refreshing however, to climb out, take a deep breath of good fresh need, and shake my hands clean of mess I’ve been clawing through. Sometimes small remnants remain, crusted under my fingernails, of behind my ears. And they beckon me, but that’s when I have to pull out the bottle of alcohol from under my bathroom sink and rub myself free of the contamination. As a matter of fact, I think I’m going to go do that right now. Goodnight.